i still haven't weighed myself since last post, and i'm scared. i want to be 125lbs next time i weigh...
but my clothes are feeling a little loose on me, so i guess i'm doing goodish.

umm, so i kinda guess noone reads anymore, but i'll still keep posting, because it helps me feel better.

i'm going to a boatparty on sunday. i'm so exited. partaay! my dress looks ok, but i look kind of fat in it. ive been throwing up everything i eat, and exercising like crazy.

hmph! :(

ok...bye

okay so my laptop has refused to let me unblock my other blog!
ahh man!
and right now i'm at my lowest point and i need you guys, so i decided to use my other blog which i made by accident when i first joined blogspot :)

so umm, last week, wednesday, i achieved my all time low of 127lbs..and i was happy. i walked in a confidence id never had before.
then the binge monster came out, and i ate and ate and ate (with the occasional purge).

and now i'm scared to weigh myself, because my clothes are getting tight on me. its been about a week and 2 days, i think i must have gained atleast 10lbs. :(

i cant be back to the 130s! no way, i am entering 2011 below 125lbs! i must!

so today, i'm asking if anyone has done the salt water flash and how effective it, because yesterday i kind of binged and need this food out of me so as to start my new diet :)

ive been reading (some) of your blogs and they are motivating me very much. i cant read allof them, because my laptop is blocking eveyrthing that sounds extreme/profane/criminal... frankly i dont get it, and i think my mum has something to do with it :(


all my love. xxx